“Love is the answer.”

I’ve had a lot of people suggest to me that I should go to church ever since I immigrated to the United States. My experience of church is generally positive. Everyone is just really nice there and the focus on family sorta made sense and was more or less what I was aiming for in life. However, the bible and the rituals associated with church always just felt really foreign to me and so I never fully got into it despite the fact that I considered it a few times. I didn’t want to start acting and come off as disrespectful.

In addition, a part of me always felt that people somehow assumed I was gay (which I guess I am) and that that was why they were prescribing church to me, which just seemed a bit ridiculous from my perspective. Is church really a “cure”? I don’t know the answer to that. And even though conversion therapy is regarded as this sort of evil and damaging thing by the medical establishment, I probably honestly would’ve given it a shot if I had somehow been “caught” as a teenager or earlier. You know, just to try it… Sometimes, you just gotta manipulate the manipulator. But the discussion about being gay was never brought up and it always just lingered in a hidden compartment within the back of my brain since I was a prepubescent child. Who knows what would’ve been had this issue been resolved sooner rather than later. I’d probably be a physician.