I don’t know how the world works

I’ve gone through life with a strong sense of self-imposed ignorance. Since I moved around a lot, I had to relearn the rules with every relocation. I was forced to learn fast. One of my most vivid memory of childhood was when I first immigrated to Canada around the age of 5 and I didn’t really speak any English. In school, I needed to use the restroom and I didn’t possess the language to communicate that to my teachers. That was the kind of upbringing I had and, in some ways, the life that I continue to live today.

Thus, I’ve navigated the majority of my life not really knowing how the world works and, to a large extent, how people around me operate. This mindset has its pros and cons. The advantage is that I’ve had to learn quickly at every stage of my life and be adaptable. The disadvantage is that this lifestyle has engendered much discomfort because it’s really easy to offend someone, for instance, when you apply one principle that is valid in one location toward another one that just doesn’t apply.

Yet, going back to this self- and life-imposed ignorance I feel I’m constantly under, it does have its benefits. I’ve alluded to the fact in earlier posting that there is evil in this world and that we as human beings need to operate under a certain state of ignorance to function adequately. There’s just no way to know all the answers all the time. We need to have trust and have faith that everything will just work out. This may not be the best answer, but it’s sort of the reality that we operate in.