I don’t really know what I’m doing in life

I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again: I don’t know what I’m doing in life. I’ve sort of been improvising a path way forward ever since leaving medical school and have not found my grounding that has provided a financially viable future. Fortunately, I don’t hold any debt, but that will change with architecture school. However, I’m not unhappy by any means. I’m just sort of exploring my way through the world, and certainly not going on autopilot like many others. In graduate school, I came upon this concept of not being able to have it both ways, and I think that certainly applies to my life, on which I have taken a rather untraditional path on. You can’t live in multiple universes and experience parallel lives at the same time. That’s just against the laws of physics.

At the end of the day, I think it all just goes back to boredom for me. I’m someone who gets extremely bored easily and my entire life has really been about how to shake off that boredom whether it be through music, the arts, or just plain old tennis. I don’t really know what to say regarding this topic and don’t really hold any ideas on how to manage my future. I recently read this article on Vox that making difficult decisions(i.e. career, spouse, etc…) in life really rests on who you define yourself as a person. I think that’s what’s driving my decisions looking forward at the end of the day. I want to be known as someone who didn’t take the traditional path: someone who’s unique and lived a life that is honest and true.