It’s been a rough week

Something about this week. I’ve been down and experiencing low energy most of the time and not being able to get the work done. I think it’s a bit of burnout that I’m facing regarding the current postdoc. I don’t feel like I have much direction or guidance and I’m resorting to having to figure it out on my own, which I don’t know if I’m ready for, to be honest. It really makes you doubt your worth going through all of this. I don’t know what I’m going to do and I don’t know if the direction I’m going in is the right one at the moment. 

I don’t know if I should take another day off or not. I don’t know if I can afford it. It is the weekend, after all. I sort of operate under a different work timeline than most people and I think for the postdoc there is this implicit understanding that you will go above and beyond to get the job done. I didn’t really feel the pressure when I just started, but I do feel the pressure now. I don’t know if this is a healthy thing to attribute to one’s profession. Academia is certainly a high pressure, high workload world.