I bought a new keyboard

I remember when I was younger—a junior high student—I stole a mechanical pencil from my mom’s office and kept it with me. When I lost it, I became so sad that I couldn’t sleep well for a few days, and I think I shed a few tears in its memory. I had formed a sort of bond with an inanimate object, and I genuinely felt a sense of sadness when I had lost it. I don’t know if this is a phenomenon that’s common in human beings; I imagine that it is, but it’s something that I certainly outgrew as an adult. I’m still a rather materialistic individual overall, or maybe just someone who appreciates well-made things. I’m an artist after all. However, I do feel that it was quite strange that I felt a longing for a mechanical pencil and not, say, a stuffed animal or something of that sort—something typical that children would form attachment to. Even as a child, I showed a tendency and a penchant for the academic realm. I wasn’t necessarily taught the proper mechanics of studying; however, that never really stopped me from wanting it. 

This brings me to my new keyboard. I feel the same joy today when I purchase studious objects as I did when I was still a child. I don’t really know if this is a shared attribute amongst my peers; I don’t really think it is. I imagine that everyone has their own quirks and that there’s something undeniably idiosyncratic about what we long for. Today, for better or for worse, I can just order most of the things my heart desires. I get the sense that I won’t be able to do that as an architecture student on a budget. In the long run, a little budgeting and knowing how to do it will be good for me. I just need to make sure I don’t go overboard.